“Oh god! He doesn’t remember her and yet he gives her so much love and is so afraid of hurting her!” Cherine burst into tears, but beneath it all I also felt the pride she felt in him. I rubbed my fingers across the back of her neck as I waited to see how this will end.
1101
*I’m your little Wendy, silly. Were you sick Robbie? Is that why you don’t remember me?*
*I am Robbie? Maybe little Wendy, I think I am lost.*
*I call you Robbie. You are Robert! Can big Wendy come and help you? She is older than me, she will know if you are sick.*
*Big Wendy is a doctor? How big is she?* He became distressed as she began to panic. She felt his fear and it calmed her for she suddenly realised he is sick and she must be the strong one. It frightened her, but she was determined to try.
*Robbie, I am five, big Wendy is not BIG, she is nine years old I think. Please let her come and play with us, she sings and her songs are beautiful.*
*I am afraid little Wendy. I remember I must not let anyone see me. Will big Wendy hurt me, does she like me?*
She began to talk in a mock adult way, as only little children of five can, trying to carefully explain to him. *Wendy is the bestest! She likes you very much. I know she also loves you. She got very, very sad when you got lost.*
What he learnt distressed him. *Nobody should be sad little Wendy. Why does she like me, did we play together?*
*You played puppy with her. Do you remember the game?*
*No. Is it difficult to play, can I learn?*
Little Wendy began to cry and it was as if a storm were tearing him apart.
*Please little Wendy, please don’t cry, you are hurting me. You can bring your big Wendy to play if you want her so much.*
“Wendy, be careful love, do not frighten him off, he is like a little boy of about three.”
“I promise, I will be very careful - if I can stop myself from crying Dommi.”
“If you cry it may damage him even more, do not cry!”
She was careful not to appear too closely.
*Hello Robbie, I am your friend Wendy. You hurt yourself a little and forgot where your home is and we lost you. It made me very sad. I am glad you came back.*
*Wendy, I am afraid. I did not do anything, but little Wendy keeps crying and it hurts me.* There was a swirl of colours as his thoughts raced in a sudden panic. *Will you also hurt me Wendy?*
*Never my love. Would you like to play puppy? I can show you, it is very easy.*
That wonderful beautiful girl soon had all three of them playing. In our world the house was full of weeping girls. I noticed Ulya was linked in - it must have been Wendy who did it. It was too new for her and she was only aware of them, she could not handle yet the splitting of her awareness.
The house was filling up with silent Cherinians who were all there to see what has happened and what is happening. They were surprised that it was little Cherine who showed them and kept them linked. None of us could have done it, we were all too caught up in our emotions.
Wendy ended the game by enfolding them both within her and she sang a gentle song of love and joy. He was quickly bonding to her and she became afraid and decided to leave.
*Robbie, our little Wendy, she has to stay here and she will be very sad if she is left alone. Do you promise me you will stay and look after her?*
He agreed and as they parted, he tenderly pulled little Wendy to him and talked with her, promising her he will look after her. Wendy was visibly shaken by the amount of love he had sent her and she returned.
She burst into tears and the pain in her was a song of joy that she could not contain. “Cherine, I didn’t do it on purpose, I swear. He just gave me so much love I could not help myself.”
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“How can you even think I would care if he loves you more, Wendy! Just bring him back to us and you can be his biggest love forever, I will not care.” Weeping the two of them clung to each other.
Alki spoke, “Dominique, this is a miracle. Even I had given up hope. How do we take it from here? Do you know what to do?”
“I am terrified Alki. I haven’t got any idea of what we should do next. Alki mou, I would even be glad to have him back as he is now, a three year old. He still has all the most important qualities that we love in him.”
Timidly, Ulya asked, “Dominique? Can I go and stay somewhere else until he is better and strong again?” I felt the retorts the others were about to make in anger and I silenced them.
“You are afraid of hurting him Ulya?”
“I cannot help it, I will say something wrong and you will lose him again.”
I thought about where she could go to stay. Cherine turned to her. “You are not going anywhere, Robert would never forgive us if we let you. This is your home and family. We must all try to help him together.”
“But what if I...”
“Then don’t. Stop thinking of yourself Ulya. Think of him for a change before you open your mouth.”
“But if you lose him …”
“Then we lose him. He would not allow this, so we will not. To save him at the cost of sending you away from us he would say is wrong. I may die if we lose him again, but I love him enough to take the risk so that we save him in a way that will only fill him with love.”
Aganthi gave a wide grin through her tears. “You see Ulya, we are all becoming stupid like our Roberto. I think your happiest day will be when you also become stupid like us.”
“Why am I so different from all of you. Wendy you were hurt worse than me, but you could love, why can’t I? What is wrong with me?”
“I can tell you.” We looked at Marian, surprised that she had answered. “When these terrible things happened to them, Ulya they felt fear. People they knew, trusted and loved were hurting them and they learnt to fear. When it happened to you, you realised you could not fight, or if you did they knocked the fight out of you. What you did was learn to hate. You had to keep it inside you, but you filled yourself with hate. Robert is able to handle fear, he is so good and gentle that they were able to forget their fear with time.
He does not know how to handle hate. You saw the goodness in him, you saw that you were safe with him, that whatever you did or said, he would not hurt you. You saw that your hate could hurt him and the hate burst out of you. You lost control of it.
You forgot something very important. To use hate against a man like Robert, is the same as what the bad men did to you. You took someone who was completely vulnerable and tried to hurt him as badly as you could. Let me tell you something little girl, you succeeded! Bravo!
Now comes also the important question. When do you decide you want to be able to live with yourself, take responsibility for your own actions and acknowledge that in the end your hate has turned you into a copy of those men that hurt you.”
She stared throughout this at Marian and then turned wounded eyes to see the recognition of the truth in Marian’s words in our eyes. She ran out of the room and as the door was closing we heard a sob. The twins made to go to her and I stopped them.
“We will go to her, but first she must have time to feel sorry for herself, get rid of that and then think about what she heard. Then we can go, not now, we must not help her hide from the truth.”
“Ulya can wait. Wendy, when you go back, what will you do?”
“I don’t know Cherine.”
“I think you should play for a while. Then tell him he is such a wonderful person to play with that you want to give a party for him and invite some kids.”
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“If he says no?”
“Then we wait. Wendy, if he needs six months to feel confident enough to meet us, we wait six months.”
“But then he will only love me, that is not fair!”
“I don’t give a shit what is fair!! Only what Robert needs is fair, do you understand me!” Meekly Wendy nodded. “I am sorry, that was rude of me and Robert would be angry. Wendy, he will learn to love us again, but only if we can bring him back to this world. Do whatever you have to, just bring him back please.”
Cherine turned to Alki and her mother. “Tomorrow night is new year’s eve. Will you spend it with us as we welcome a new year with the hope of our Robert returning to us, or would it be too boring for you to spend it with a bunch of kids?”
Marian teased her, “Even if you are my daughter and a very special little girl, I must admit there are times when you can be quite stupid. When has it ever been boring for us around this family. We never know what to expect and you always find a way to either shock us or at least, surprise us. What could compete with that?”
Samantha had ignored all being said, biting her lip as she sat lost in her thoughts. She now spoke. “Wendy, when we are at school, at break, sometimes I see a group of kids playing or talking and because I am not included, I feel they must be having a lot of fun or talking about something special and I wish I could join them. We should do the same with daddy. You should go to him and then a few of us should come in, but far away from you. We should pretend we do not notice you and just play amongst ourselves. Make him want to join us and then we can let him.”
“I prefer that to my party idea. You thought of it Sam, so you decide who you want to have with you.”
“Thank you. I want you Cherine, Diana and the twins. I think Irene too. Gosh, where do I stop, I want Meli and Bernie and… Cherine, I can’t decide, I want everyone!”
“Dommi?”
“Too many! First start with just two. Later a third joins them, then a fourth and fifth, until we are all there. That way we do not frighten him.”
Themi nodded. “A good plan. Try to make it a happy place for him so that he wants to stay. Cherine, did you get rid of your message? We do not want him to see it now.”
Cherine panicked. “I forgot!! If I get rid of it now he will notice, it may frighten him. I will lock it so that he cannot see what is inside. I have something to do, I’ll be back just now.”
She went to the void and straight to our emerald isle. “Mama, do you want to look in my mind and see what happened?”
She gave her big belly laugh. “I do. Why do you call me Mama? Do you mean ‘big black mama’ in the American style of speaking?”
“I do not! Robert called you Mama, that is why, I did not mean to insult you.”
“My name is Josephine. Show me.” She opened her eyes. “You have done well.”
“I am linking you to me so that you can see from here what we do.”
“Thank you sweet child. It does get rather boring here.”
Cherine and I watched as first Wendy returned to be welcomed with childish glee. Once they were playing, Sam and the twins unobtrusively entered and quietly played. Suddenly the mental laugh of Sam sounded and Robert became afraid. Wendy placed herself between him and the others and he accepted her protection.
It felt weird for Wendy to be protecting Robert, she was not comfortable with the reversal of their roles, but she was also proud of it. She soothed and calmed him until he began to peep around her shyly, taking short glimpses of the others. As he saw they were not interested in him he started to become curious. His playing was now distracted and we felt the yearning to play with them also.
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Diana appeared and she showed she wished to join the others and drifted in towards them. When she was close enough they made her a part of their games and soon she was laughing as she ducked and weaved to avoid being caught.
When later on another child appeared and was accepted by the group, Robert could hardly contain himself. He had absorbed the fact that it is only necessary for him to show he wants to play with them and they would accept him, but he was still shy.
I told the others to stay out. We should wait a while to see what he will do. Wendy took charge though. She asked him whether he would like her to sing so as to make the other kids want to join them. He agreed, but hid within her.
She sang and her ‘voice’ spoke of wonderful games and lovely friends all coming together. The other group stopped their playing and slowly, almost fearfully drifted over. When the song finished they were all in a bunch and Sam asked if they can play with Wendy and her friends. Little Wendy recognised them and of course danced joyfully, giving them little tastes of her love. Robert watched as they reciprocated and soon both Wendies were playing, all in one group, with Robert still fearful and shy but peeking out more often. When Diana sent him a taste of her love he reacted by going into shock.
We had not considered the effect she was bound to have on him. We were afraid we had lost him as he seemed poised, ready to flee. The poor remnants of his glorious form trembled, but bravely he sent back to her his own love - I am convinced it was his ‘Robert’ instinct that forced him to, as he felt her dismay and fear that he would reject her.
The next night we all welcomed in the new year watching him play with most of the girls. He now seems less interested in playing than in exchanging motes of love. His form has brightened and he has grown. He is now often taking little Wendy into himself and feeding her a special diet of his love. It is strange to see our Robert as a three year old being protective of her.
We left little Wendy alone with him and all of us gathered in the lounge. They all needed me to speak, so I gave them my thoughts.
“I have a feeling that we will never know what he did, where he disappeared to, but at least we will have him back. We must take it very slowly, let him absorb memories from copies of himself. They must be chosen carefully, progressing in age until he is strong enough to return and take over his body again.
This experience has cost all of us, but what has grieved me is seeing how it changed our girls. Robert treasures their childishness, but the shock and fear of losing him, of being left on our own, has matured them all. Especially Cherine and Diana. On the other hand, he will be pleased to see the changes in Ulya. We are all very proud of you, there is a new softness and understanding in you. Ulya, has it helped you seeing him as he is now, a little child?”
“It helped, but not in the way you think. As a child I have no reason to fear or hate him so I was able to look properly and recognise the qualities you talked about. Seeing them in the child, I was able to see them in the man. I can now accept him as a father or friend without fear.”
“That will do. Contrary to what you may think, Robert does not yearn to make love to every little girl. The girls want him to and it hurts him to refuse. Ulya, for as long as you do not want him to, he will not even try. That means though that you must understand that if he hugs or kisses you, he is only expressing his love for you. If you fear, it will cause him unhappiness, he needs to show love to those he loves.”
Ulya nodded and it was just a matter of us hoping for the best. She really is a beautiful child and I hope she grows out of this phobia as she ages; she will be the one to lose out if she ends up spending her whole life fearing or hating sex.
I chose to go in as a child too, masking my ‘mother’ love as Robert calls it. I do not want him thinking or loving me only as his ‘mother’. I saw what the girls meant, the love he sent me was the pure love of a little child and it was as sweet as love can get. His mental age automatically prevented any of us from giving him love touched with our sexual needs. I think he is more like a five to six year old now, just missing the memories to age him correctly. I think we have to start giving him back his memories.
1105
It is a moment of fear, we are all on edge with our anxiety. Cherine decided to edit his childhood memories and has taken out those of his pain when he lost his mother. I strongly disagree with her, but she says she will give them to him once he is a ten year old. I hope her gift is guiding her and not her childish need to protect him.
We decided he may fear taking in his memories and Meli suggested we make a game of it. Each of us placed a number of his memories from his slivers within ourselves as separate ‘packages’. We are playing a game where each of us gets a chance to win and we are able to ensure he does not win the first rounds. The winner is allocated a group of memories that they are given as a prize.
Sam was the first to win and she made a big show of how wonderful it was to take in her prize. She gave off the impression of strutting with pleasure and pride at having won her prize. It was the same with Bernie, then Aganthi and so on. When Claudia won we all slightly tensed up for now it would be his turn. He had shown disappointment after the first three had won and when he won, he happily dashed off to claim his prize.
Themi was sitting to one side, directly viewing our strategy and when he returned to his body he showed his amazement, telling all how he could have helped so many of his patients if he could have used our techniques. He is determined to try and adapt from our techniques ways for Normals to help their patients.
Robert absorbed his prize and he froze, emanating a deep pleasure. Once he had tasted of all his prize he came to us with such joy that he was almost out of control. He dashed from the one to the other bestowing his motes of love with a reckless abandon. It was very difficult for the rest of us to continue with the game as we were all dazed by the feelings of love that flooded us.
When we left him there were many wet eyes as we sat holding each other in joy. The non-family members who had all participated vicariously had the same problems in controlling their emotions. When I saw little Cherine holding on to her Rob and weeping, I knew she has now forgotten his terrorising of her and there is nothing left but love within her.
“I need your help. My Cherine and I do not know how to change the age of our bodies yet. We are only able to change the shape. I want to change this body of Robert, bring it closer to his emotional age.”
“That is a good idea Rob and we can teach you. When do we show him how to take control of his body again?”
“I think it will have to happen soon. Once he has any memories, he becomes aware that the world he is in is not the real world. He will want to be a normal little boy with a body and able to eat and see and feel. It may happen now at your next visit, the latest at the one after.”
I asked, “We should then age him to about ten?”
“You are the mother of this family, you choose Dommi.”
Everybody tried to hide their surprise when it was Ulya who spoke next. “Can I make a suggestion?”
“You do not need to ask Ulya, go ahead.”
“If he is a ten year old, I think all of the girls, all of you should become younger. He should see you as maybe five years old or younger so that his instinct to protect all of you keeps on working.”
Like a mother I reprimanded her. “Ulya, you are family too, why do you not include yourself, don’t you want him to protect you also?”
“You won’t mind?”
I hugged her, as did Cherine and all of us sent her our love. She sat on my lap hugging me as she shuddered and wept. Our little iceberg is melting and it filled all of us with joy.
The memories of his next five years included Niko and Alki and myself. We asked my father and brother to join us after he absorbed the memories, he should meet all of us and get to know us again.
I suppose I subconsciously expected him to show the greatest love for me, but it made more sense the way it happened. He met us shyly, remembering me also from the previous days, but then he pulled at Niko and they went off by themselves while he talked and played with Niko, glad to have his friend back with him.
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Once back in our bodies, Niko held us with moisture in his eyes that he tried to control.
“Dominique, this may have been for Robert, but it was also the sweetest moment I can remember for a long time. To see and re-live the innocence of Robert as a child, to feel the love he had for me. I never expected it to affect me so strongly.”
Wendy called out in distress.
“Little Wendy just told me that Robert told her he wants to come to this world. He is wondering why he cannot feel his body. She sadly told him how, but then told him that she cannot come with him, that they must say goodbye as she does not have a body to go to. He now refuses to leave!”
This was something so obvious and yet none of us had anticipated it. We were all stumped, we know our Robert, he will never abandon her. Even Themi had nothing to suggest. Our glow of pleasure at our successes with him was now replaced by anxiety.
“Rob, what do we do, how could we get you to leave her if it was you?”
“I would not. I don’t know what to suggest.”
“I do.” We all turned to Cherine hopefully. “I will give him the memories of Wendy, how he helped her, how he met little Wendy. Then he must be told that she has to return to Wendy so that she will be a complete person again, that Wendy only lent him her little Wendy to make him better.”
“We cannot do that, not out of context Cherine. It would not make sense to him. First he has to meet you, learn of the growth of his abilities, then he will understand about Wendy.”
“You are wrong Dommi, first he must know and love you.”
“Do we have to give him the memories of my not loving him?” I saw that I really wanted him to forget that period of our lives.
“Yes we do Dommi. I want him to love you as he did; also, if he never lost you, maybe when he meets me he will not love me. Maybe he will also love you less.”
“Dominique, crudely as Cherine put it, I think she is right. We dare not mess around with his memories. We do not have the experience to wisely predict what changes such tampering could cause him.”
Filled with melancholy, I bid farewell to my dream of having a Robert who does not remember how I left him for a man who was not worth his little finger. Oh my dear little Robert, how I wish you could have only had sweet memories of me.
This time he was not so willing to play with us. He took a protective stance in front of little Wendy and sweetly refused to leave her. This needed a re-think on our behalf. I suggested to the girls that we leave. Wendy ignored me.
*Why do you tell Robert that you do not have a body to return to? You have our body, you and I are part of each other.*
*He wants me as I am. He said he wants to play with me in our bodies. I could not lie to him.*
*Robert, little Wendy is made up of the memories I have as a five year old. When she is back in me we are one and if you play with me you are playing with her.*
*No! She is a real person and I love her. Please don’t take her from me.*
I calmed him down and we returned to our bodies.
“What now!?”
None of us knew how to answer that.
It was finally Rob who pointed the way.
“I see this as a triple problem. The first is you want to keep Robert happy, not make him face a loss this early in his development.” I glanced over at his father who was visiting and saw the look on his face. He was proud of his son, our Robert would treasure that. “The second is that Wendy needs to have that part of her life, she loses too many precious qualities if she loses that year of her life. We must also not forget that the Wendy of five years includes within her all the younger memories. Wendy must not be deprived of them.” He looked around and I saw his eyes were filled with wonder. “I think the third part none of you have realised. Robert singled her out when he first met her. He paid her a lot of attention and gave her love. Little Wendy is now, after this stay with him, a fully independent personality, perhaps even a separate soul…I have a feeling your soul has split Wendy. If I am right, then she has a right to her own life. I suggest little Wendy gives a sliver of her soul with her full set of memories to Wendy and we make a new body for her, from the cells of Wendy.”
1107
Niko began to giggle, his face reddened with embarrassment but he could not stop himself. It was strange to hear him giggle, I had never heard him do that before. His girls were looking up at him and they tittered behind their hands.
“I am sorry, I could not help it. The thought came to me that even now Robert manages to get himself another little girl…as if one Wendy is not enough for any man, he needs two!!”
Cherine put her arm around Wendy who was flushed. “You are right Niko, one Wendy is not enough for Robert, or for us or for the world. The more Wendies there are the better this world will be.”
Poor Wendy was overcome and buried her face in Cherine’s shoulder as we all agreed with Cherine.
“Can you imagine a concert with the two Wendies and Lua singing together?” There was awe at the thought in the voice of Alki.
I looked at my watch, saw the time and made everybody go to the lounge while I prepared coffees.
“This might be the time we bring Robert back, I want to wait until after midnight when it is the sixth of January, even if it is only for symbolic reasons. That way he is re-born on his birthday and on the wedding anniversary of most of us.”
Soon as it was midnight, Cherine called the protector and explained to it what we want. It was a moment that shook everybody when the little five year old body materialised on the bed next to our Robert. We all quickly altered our body ages and Cherine dashed in to Robert.
*Robert, from now our games will be in the real world also. We made a body for little Wendy. I have come to take her to her own body. Will you come out of here also and take over your own body?*
*How?*
Cherine showed him and then showed little Wendy how to give a sliver of herself with all her five years of memories to Wendy. She then wrapped herself around her and they disappeared. Robert was now forced to take over his body. We all pulled back to our own bodies to see the two of them opening their eyes.
“Happy birthday Robert. Today is your birthday, the sixth of January.”
“Little Wendy?”
“I am here Robbie!! I have my own body!” She began to cry. He turned and took her in his arms.
“I love you little Wendy.”
“Me too.”
He kissed the tip of her nose and smiled at her teary eyes. “I can’t keep calling you little Wendy. What do you want me to call you?”
“Wendy.”
“I can’t love, it will get confusing, big Wendy has that name already. I want a special name that belongs to you only.”
“I can be your Wendy.”
He gave a delighted laugh. “You are, but I still want a new name for you. I know, how about Candy, you are as sweet as candy and I love candy very much.”
“I will be your only Candy?”
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“My one and only.”
She looked at him, her serious eyes searching into his. “Okay.”
“Can Wendy come and meet her little sister Candy, please?”
Wendy stepped closer and he smiled at her. “Look Candy, Wendy stole your pretty eyes, I think you are going to like each other.”
He now became shy, a ten year old boy caught out being sweet to two little girls. He saw Niko and gave an embarrassed smile.
“Welcome back you little idiot, we thought we had lost you forever.”
“How could you lose me, all you had to do is say ‘Shazam’ and fly all over the world and find me.”
Niko laughed. “I’d forgotten, he used to pretend I was Captain Marvel - he used to prefer thinking of himself as the younger cousin because, as a super hero, he was slimmer and without the bulging muscles of Captain Marvel. Robert, we still look ten years old, but we are older.”
“I know.”
“You do, how?”
“All of the girls, when we played and I tried to guess which way they would move, I saw inside them and saw some of them were my daughters and then I saw that all of them were my wives. Niko, was I in an accident? How can I have so many wives and why are they all children? Who are these other people… oh, Kyrie Elia and Kyria Claire, ti kanete?”
“You must be very confused Robert. Do you remember the games where you got a prize? Those were your memories. Cherine, your first wife and love, she has been holding your memories for you while you were lost and sick. Now that you are better, would you like to have them back?"
He nodded. “Yes. It scares me, I like being as I am, but I feel it is hurting all of you that I don’t remember you, so I better, I guess.”
“First we will give you your memories up to the day you fell in love with Cherine and married her and me. The rest you can have later. Okay?”
“I think not. Give me a few minutes please.” He lay there thinking, his one arm around Candy. “Where was I, where did Candy find me?”
“You were inside yourself Robert. Your mind got shattered and you hid away….”
He looked at us in horror. “You mean I was mad!!”
“Robert, you have always been a little crazy. It was not that kind of mad, something happened to frighten you or hurt you and it smashed all your memories. Because you loved Cherine so much you had given her a copy of all your memories. She wants to give them back to you.”
“Cherine.”
“Yes Robert?”
He looked at her, his eyes trying to find something in her. “You are pretty. Why do they keep saying you were my first love and wife? Were you really so special to me? I’m sorry, I’ve hurt you, I didn’t mean to.” His eyes filled with tears.
“It is alright my Robert. Maybe you will love me again?”
“Like I love my Candy?”
“Oh god!!” Marian left the room crying, Alki quickly followed.
Cherine stared back at him bravely, not showing her loss. “Maybe like Candy, that would be nice my love.”
He shook his head. “I am saying the wrong things and hurting everyone. Cherine, give me all my memories please.”
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“It would be better if...”
“You are Dommi, my little Dominique? Dommi, I want them all back now!”
I backed down. Cherine bent her head and I saw a tear fall onto her leg. I felt her giving him what he had asked for. His eyes closed he turned over onto his side and lay there silently. Themi gestured.
“We better leave him alone for a while.” He softly whispered.
“No, stay. You are Themi, I need your help professor. I am not the Robert you all lost, something has gone wrong. Themi, I recall all of them, even the Sparklers and the Anadir Worlds. I now know I should love my girls, daughters, wives, all. The truth is I only love Candy and Wendy. Why? How can I fix it?”
“Perhaps with time….”
“I do not have time. I feel their pain!!” He curled his legs up to his chest while Candy tried to soothe him. We all quickly dampened ourselves, trying to hide our pain and terrible loss from him. It did not seem to work. We sensed the agony a fire tearing through him. I was in a panic that we would lose him again.
He sat up, his eyes searching for something, wild in their need. He moaned and disappeared. My heart stopped for a second and then I realised he had jumped. We felt him at our first beach in Cyprus. He was on his knees and screaming. I forced the girls to stay, I was terrified that if we followed he might try to escape our pain by going back to wherever he had hidden himself before.
Wendy gathered up little Candy and held her as we watched him throw himself all over the world, as if some place held the answer to his need. Finally he collapsed on the beach again. He stood up and raised his arms to the sky and called.
The protector and his healer came to him.
“Fix me!”
*We cannot make you love.*
“Fix me damn it! Take me back to join with the Robert who loved.”
I had brought in Ulya so that she could share with us our joy and she was still linked. She wondered aloud even as he disappeared and our link with him was broken. “He does not love and he cannot live without the love he does not have!! How can he miss something he does not remember!”
The link came back and our Robert returned.
“God! I’m sorry my loves. I’m back.”
We felt the love in him and the room was suddenly filled with the weeping of a crowd of little girls who were pressing forward trying to touch him.
“This must have been your idea Niko,” he smiled at him fondly. “I bet you thought if you make them all little girls I would go crazy with lust and make a fool of myself again.” His hands were fondling the little heads that surrounded him. “Cherine love? You all need to feel my love, but now things have changed. There is one who fears she has lost me, while you all rejoice that you found me. Can I have my sweet Candy please?”
He held her up in his arms, his eyes level with hers, without a word being spoken. She felt how the love he felt for all of us has deepened and multiplied the love he feels for her and her face glowed.
“I have loved you for years. It took something stupid like this for us to think of a way to bring you out for me to love and hold forever. My own little bit of Candy, I chose a good name for you.” He turned to Sam, saw her lying limply. “I think we better prepare for visitors. Shall we go to the lounge?”
He could not remember what had caused him to destroy himself and we were all just glad to have him back, so were not in a hurry to help him remember. For the first time in years he seemed not only in high spirits, but his body also seemed to be fully healthy, back at prime.
1110
As he took the time to greet and hug each and everyone one, Savva stepped up to him for the Greek hug and kiss. We heard a loud click and saw he had handcuffed Robert.
“Kyrie Robert Teller, you are under arrest.”
“For what Officer?”
“For causing grievous mental torment and sorrow to all the ones who love you, you vlaka! (idiot)”
He was laughing and we all joined in and for once Robert accepted a joke about his hurting us and also laughed. That was the medicine my heart needed. I saw Cherine look at me sharply and then she too smiled, giving me a wink of conspiracy. That damn husband of ours, aware of everything as always, chuckled with his amusement and sent us his love.
Ordinx and Solomon arrived in the bodies we are used to, but that are new to Robert. They greeted and showed him their joy at having him back. After a while he looked at them with his head bent over sideways as he often does when thinking deeply and asked.
“Are they real human bodies?”
“In most ways.”
“Can you eat and drink with them?”
“We should be able to.”
“Good! Then we can all go to a taverna and celebrate. I’m starving.”
“I do not think that there is a taverna that can accommodate this many people.”
“Fine, then we can go to Spyros and Maria in Cyprus, they will fit us all. Shall we go?”
It was as if he were drunk with life and energy. I could not help secretly wondering for a second what it would be like to make love with him while he is in this mood. He caught my thought and shouted over the intervening heads, “Wait a bit my girl, you’ll find out.”
Something has definitely changed, he is not only far more alive, but he is also more sensitive, able to pick up even my hidden thoughts. I saw from the other girls he is doing the same to all of them and we all were bemused by this tornado of a man who is suddenly in our lives.
I guess Robert will be taking over this diary again. It was good writing here, setting my thoughts and memories down for all of us to read in the years to come. I hope he is not too unhappy with the way I wrote my few pages.
I’m back again :-)
Robert says he will be too busy and he likes my style - whatever he means by that. I’ll carry on for a few days, but this is his diary and I refuse to take it over.
I might as well carry on from our afternoon and evening in Cyprus. When over fifty people turned up, the owners went into a sort of shock. They did not need to panic, Marian and Natalie joined them in the kitchen while the rest of us sat with our cold drinks or beers and made a party of it. Robert moved from table to table, had a soft touch for whoever needed it, a joke for each table and wasted no time in teasing us all again. When he came to Ordinx he dragged a chair with him and sat by his side.
“I am not an alienologist or whatever we will call people who learn to understand aliens. However, I am a friend and I think I know you well enough to feel something grieves you, or maybe it is just something that weighs heavy on your mind. Is there a problem with your people? I see it is not. Something I have done?”
“Something I did. Robert, I was the cause of your distress that made you pull away into hiding.”
“Good! I was wondering about that. None of my girls were feeling guilty about it and I was puzzled. Now that I know it was you, I can relax.”
“It was after we freed our first soul from a Sparkler and were celebrating…”
Αλέξανδρος Ζήνον Ευσταθίου
(Alexander Zenon Eustace)12th June, 2019
- posted on Steemit: 12th June, 2019