“Dommi, Cherine and you too Wendy, thank you. I nearly made the biggest mistake of my life.”With the death of her daughter, she became convinced she had sinned and was paying for her sins. There was nothing else left to her, just the empty years of struggle and pain when she thought of her lost children.
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I waited for Dommi to make her some tea and for her to regain her composure and then explained again to Rose that we are a group with special abilities, but that we are good and our abilities are born out of love and empathy for everyone. I asked her to come to me, to follow my calling of her and then asked her to shut her eyes and relax.
Alki and Marian were waiting for us, eager to be taken to the void. I called to Rose, but she did not come. I tried as long as I still hoped. Wendy made her suggestion by projecting to me the ‘puppy’ game.
As I entered her world I saw Rose and I stopped for a moment just to enjoy the sight of her. She was oblivious of me so I sent out a slight tendril and gave her some love. She felt it, but was not aware yet of me or even herself. I called out to her, but she did not seem to hear. I was stumped. This had never happened before.
Wendy came in and before I had a chance to interfere she flew into Rose, melding. I saw the protector appear, but it did not interfere. When Wendy drew out I sighed with relief then became captivated by the changes in Rose. She approached me and sent a swirl of her lights to me. I accepted and sent mine back to her. I asked her to follow us and not to fear anything, we are with her. She did not understand, but she either trusted Wendy or was curious, for she followed.
We danced, but I made sure she did not become part of our circle, or that of Alki and Marian. The girls were upset with me, until I sent them my idea.
My mother was a real mess of contradictions. Being a devout Catholic she was ecstatic at having proof that souls exist, but on the other hand she was troubled by our claims and our presence in the void. We pointed out to her the souls back on Earth and she was awed. Almost without us exchanging words we decided this was not the time to confuse her further by appearing as the Kaleidoscope World. We kept our dancing simple and joyous so that she feels free to exchange and taste our love. It was only reluctantly that she agreed to return to her worn out body - we could sense how she did not want to, that she preferred her existence as it is in the void, filled with a sense of life.
Back in our sitting room we watched Rose pull herself back together. Without warning her, or asking permission, my healer was already in her, repairing and healing, regenerating her, and I could tell she felt something was happening, but the experiences which had already flooded her mind had been too alien for her to understand what she is feeling. We took our time and by the time she was ready to start asking questions Alki and Marian had arrived from the void and come to our home. We answered her questions and knowing she needed time to digest and understand, I quietly asked Alki to take her out and keep her overnight, as we need time on our own.
“Robert you must do what Wendy did. I think parts of you are still not accepting your mother.”
“I agree. But not now. When she is ready to be a part of us, then. She must find all those hurt parts in her and make them better. She must be a mother again. At least I was able to send the healer to her, though it is taking it slow so as to give her the time she needs for adjusting. We now have plenty of time.”
“Are you really planning to make her part of a circle with Pavlo?”
“It okay with you Cherine?”
She did something very uncharacteristic of her. She knelt in front of me and rested her chin on my knees. When she looked up she had tears in her eyes. “You did not forget. Thank you.”
“You really love him don’t you?”
She blushed but nodded. “It feels like I have a brother, he has a really sweet soul. He’s not very clever and I don’t think he has big dreams, but he’ll never hurt anybody.”
“If I may be coarse, I am dying to have some loving from my girls.” Dommi arched an eyebrow at me. She was amused at something and I was in a good mood, so I did not mind her teasing me. “Okay, out with it. Don’t just sit there smirking at me.”
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She laughed, because of my mood. “Ever since Wendy joined us you’ve stopped calling us your wives, we are just your girls again?”
I wondered for a moment, why can’t it just be like in the porno movies. They get together, they have sex and that is it. Imagine, no drawn out talking or tricky questions every time! They all laughed and I vaguely saw an image of a chicken running away, but could not work out who had sent it.
“Would you have me do otherwise Dommi, my beloved wife?”
She looked across at Wendy and smiled. “No, I’m just as happy to be your girl.”
“Okay, since nobody wants to have sex with me, let’s discuss our Christmas plans. You girls decided yet?”
Dommi spoke, “I know what I want.”
“And that is?”
“I have been remembering when I was their age, how we used to go to Paris or London and stay in a lovely hotel suite. I felt so pampered. Can’t we spend our Xmas at a luxury hotel, all of us together?”
“Something like the Kavouri Hotel? Or where?”
Cherine had never been to the Kavouri, but she certainly knew what she wanted. “How about the Cecil at Kefalari. Then we can go out to the square and enjoy our Baked Alaska’s whenever we want.”
“Should have known you would think of your tummy Cherine. Okay, I like it. I’ll ask Alki to arrange it - you girls mind if they come and bring Rose along also?”
“Not Rose - please!” I was shocked and stared at Wendy. She stared back, her baby eyes not flinching, determined to make her point. “I want your mother to come with.”
I walked over and picked her up from where she was lying in front of the fireplace, swung her in the air and as she came down against my chest I kissed her. She rubbed her cheek against mine and I felt my stubble rasp against her tender cheek.
“Sorry, better shave before we retire to our...”
A chorus of ‘no’s’ and the next thing I knew I was being dragged to the bedroom.
As I gently laid Wendy on the bed my lips were close to her ear so I whispered to her, “I love you, my little unicorn girl.”
Cherine got into a fit of laughter and as I turned to her, to my surprise I found she was keeping me out of her mind, though obviously not Dommi, for she also burst into giggles. Next thing I knew the two of them had collapsed into each others’ arms in hysterics while Wendy and I looked at each other in puzzlement. Cherine, unfair as always, decided to share the joke with Wendy. I saw her eyes grow wide in amazement and then instead of her laughing, her eyes deepened into that dark violet which told me they were planning something naughty.
When they told me I too burst out laughing, but felt the same sudden surge of passion that hit Wendy. Perhaps the most beautiful part of it was sensing how the idea made my three loves feel - I’d do anything to keep feeling it.
“You keep on telling us you wish you had three penises so I thought why don’t you project an extra two. It was real enough when you did it for Wendy wasn’t it?”
“God, if I do this, you girls realise that if it ever comes out, all the men in the world are going to hate me? To do three girls at the same time! Where do I put the extra ones?”
That led to a lot of banter, Cherine wanting hers to be my nose. They all wanted something outrageous.
“Hey, you horny degenerates, doesn’t anybody want my real one?”
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“Not me!” was chorused pretty fast. Then sweet little Wendy said, “I want it.”
I pulled her foot to me and kissed her toes. “No sweetheart, you don’t, but thank you. I want this to be fun for you also. So, where would you want it?”
She hesitated. “I was going to say your tongue but Cherine already nabbed that with your nose.”
For some reason Dommi and Cherine were rolling about on the carpet, just managing to squeak out between their howls of laughter, ‘his tongue’. Finally Cherine sat up and wiping her eyes, said, “It is almost worth giving up his nose just to see him with a penis sticking out of his mouth.” This set them off again. Wendy had now joined them in their laughter, her little girl laugh a balm. It was worth being the butt of their laughter just to hear her laugh at last.
I formed a smallish head out of my fist with my face on it and sticking out of it’s mouth was a golden throbbing penis. I showed it to Wendy and the laughter died in her as her eyes turned violet and then I saw her face become beaded with tiny droplets of sweat and her eyes deepened into those midnight eyes, glowing with the golden sparks. The girls were instantly alerted by my change of mood and looking into her eyes, their laughter died instantly.
Cherine whispered, “I’m sure she comes from another planet.” Both Dommi and I felt the same way and I sensed Cherine wishing there was some way for Alki and her mother to see Wendy with these eyes.
They saw what she was staring at and Dommi reached over and undressed Cherine, sending her to me as she undressed herself. Wendy had already taken care of it for herself, so she came very close to me and whispered, “Please don’t get cross with me, please. Can you make it a bit smaller and then really make love to me?”
“Are you sure my love? You don’t want the first time to be with the real one?” She did not know what to answer, afraid of hurting my feelings, but torn by her needs, and just remained in a crouch looking at me helplessly.
“Oh for God’s sake Robert! Just say yes for once without all that bullshit. You trying to make her feel guilty if she wants it now?”
“Robert, I am not really a virgin. You made me one again. I need to feel what it is like with someone who loves me, not just....”
“I’m sorry my love. You are right. I really wish I could make my real one smaller and make you mine right now. But this little puppeteer head will do just fine.”
“Puppeteer?”
“A creature from a science fiction book by Larry Niven.”
Dommi shook her head. “Oh you and your science fiction - how can you like that stuff when our own lives are crazier than anything in those books.”
“They paint pictures of things and worlds I would never have imagined. They sometimes develop into ideas for my work. Anyway, I love those stories Dommi.”
They were all lying alongside me, with Cherine lying on top of me. I stared into her eyes and felt her love and ‘knew’ she was going to emote fully for the first time since Wendy has joined us. I smiled in agreement and anticipation. I just hoped she does not make it impossible for me to maintain my projections.
I was no sooner done than the room was filled with screams of laughter. There was no point in my trying to assume a sense of dignity since I did look ridiculous. Every time they began to settle down, one of them would begin to laugh again and that would set them all off again. I deflated the nose and belly button ones until they were no larger than a two year olds’.
The laughter dwindled away as they stared in dismay.
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“Maybe now you can ...” as I talked the little thing wobbled and they started laughing again.
I felt Wendy, who had not laughed once, just patiently waited, begin to tease at her golden rod. The laughter died and they were both staring at her. Incongruous as the sight might have been, there was an eroticism to it that they both felt. To a large extent it was due to the single-minded concentration of Wendy and those eyes of hers.
As they turned to their own miniature tools of pleasure, Dommi just stared at hers in dismay, not seeing what she could do with such a tiny organ. Cherine however showed no hesitation and showed she does understand how my mind works. She began to fondle it until it grew to the size she wanted.
She emoted, picking up from Wendy, adding her own sensuous pleasure and as Dommi felt it she settled on her side by me. I was surprised to feel that the baby size was actually exciting her. I did not expand it as I had for Cherine, allowing her to derive all the sensual pleasure she could out of the unique opportunity and only made it grow as she began to need it to happen.
For me it was mind blowing. I was being stimulated at three sexual organs, with each of them having the same nerve endings as my real penis - or so it felt! Cherine was swirling around all the sensuous excitement and passion and to top it off I was experiencing directly the pleasures in the bodies and minds of the two of them. So, why with all that, did I have to reach out and try to bring in, or take myself in to Wendy? I do not know, all I can say is that it was a need I followed blindly.
There was a white flash in my mind, which hit the others also, but it was not strong enough to hurt or knock us out. Suddenly through me, Wendy was open to all of us. We could feel the passions, the stimulation she was enjoying in her body and mind. It was so intense it shook all of us. It seems a part of her brain we did not know of in ourselves, concentrates her feelings and these are then directed to a part that alters the colour of her eyes. Her joining us is already a very special gift for all of us in so many ways, but this gift amazed us. Sadly, later on, Dommi’s healer told her that it is unique to Wendy, as it was caused through damage to her brain by her father hitting her on her head. The ‘short-circuit’ (‘βραχυκύκλωμα’) can be mimicked should we want it. None have chosen to do so, this is something special for Wendy and it must be hers alone.
Even more amazing was when I realised she is open to and experiencing all of us. As she sensed all the physical feelings of our bodies, she burst into a frenzy that carried all of us into the most intense orgasms.
It did not take them very long to reach their next orgasm and with four simultaneous explosions of my own body plus their searing multiple explosions, I screamed as if being tortured from the feelings that were blowing my mind apart and fainted.
When I came to, the projections were gone and the girls were lying in total disarray, still recovering from not only their own feelings, but mine also. I first checked Wendy and Cherine, then Dommi. I need not have worried, my healer had looked after them and now I sensed their delicious contentment as I caressed them and whispered my words of love. I did not know which mouth to kiss, they were all so sweet and fragrant. For the first time I saw the breast area of Wendy was a fierce splodgy red, same as Cherine. Dommi only suffers from an extreme sensitivity to her nipples and cannot bear the lightest touch on her clitoris for a while.
“Robert, that was very kind of you. To make yourself look so silly and take all our laughing and still give us such a fantastic…I really love you.”
“Cherine my cherry-baby, I should be thanking all of you. It blew my mind.” With a note of wonder in my voice, I added, “I’ve never heard of any man fainting from his climax being so intense!”
Dommi was feeling exuberant. “Hey, I’ve done something no woman has ever done before. I had the penis of my man in my vagina and in my hand at the same time. Wow! You said the love and sex was going to be special when I joined you last year, but this is really extreme...”
“What did you do to me Robbie?” She sounded only curious. I and the girls explained and taught her how to handle it, not only the sex parts of it, but also the everyday parts which can cause a lot of confusion. It is amazing how quickly my loves adapt to such a powerful change to their lives. Wendy did not even give the loss of her privacy a thought, never mind a second one.
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Once I was satisfied that all my girls were okay, I sent my healer back to my mother, instructing it to concentrate on rejuvenating her slowly over a week. I was brought back to my surroundings by the joy in Wendy.
“But this means I am now your woman in every way, not only my body, but also my mind.”
“Not only me my love, of your wives-to-be also.” I reminded her, “Don’t forget it also means that I am also your man in every way.” She nodded her agreement and sucking on her thumb she curled up against me, her arm holding her to me and went into a deep sleep. Even in her sleep a deep happiness emanated from her, holding us all enthralled by the magic in her heart.
Softly Cherine whispered, “Have you noticed Wendy is only devoted to Robert. She loves us, almost like we were sisters or close friends, but she adores you Robert.”
I had noticed and it had been niggling at the back of my mind, though I must admit it felt nice to be loved so much by such a lovely little girl. “I think she fixated on me when I healed her. She is also so young, give her some time my loves. As we dance she will become a part of you and Dommi also.”
Dommi said, “No, Robert we don’t mind, but I think she is a ‘one-man’ woman, or girl.”
“Just give her time Dommi. I do not want that anybody is loved less than any of the others.”
Cherine cut in, obviously exasperated by me. “You are a silly billy (κατσίκα), of course we all have our extra love for one person.”
“Ahh, the truth is coming out Dommi. She means she loves herself just that bit extra.”
I was trying to introduce a bit of levity as I felt I was ‘wearing my heart on my sleeve’ a bit too often and wanted to divert our conversation into safer channels. Dommi just smiled to herself, but Cherine looked up at me with that big-eyed serious look of hers, “You know that both Dommi and I love you more than anyone else. But I love Dommi as part of my love for you, Wendy too, and Dommi loves us the same way. Not Wendy. She does not see us as part of you. Her love for us is separate from her love for you. That is what we miss.”
“Something sounds wrong there. Help me out Dommi. Surely it is more normal to want to be loved for yourself rather than just because you are loved by me?”
Dommi is usually more patient with my insecurities, so she spoke sweetly, without a hint of impatience, “Once, before, I would have said so. We are like the planets Robert. You are our sun and we dance around you. We affect each other and our orbits depend on the others also, but the main attraction for us is our sun, you.”
Cherine sounded delighted, “Oh, I love that Dommi. Can I be Venus?”
I laughed. “Dommi would then have to be Mother Earth. Sweetie, Venus is a dead world, so hot that you would fry in a second.”
“That sounds like me. Yes, I’m Venus.”
That got us all laughing and giving them each a soft loving kiss I settled down to sleep, warmed not only by their physical presence, but by the love I felt from/for them.
Chapter Forty Three
It was too close to the holidays for us to find rooms at the hotel we wanted and we started looking elsewhere, when Dommi called her father and asked him to help. Somehow it seems there were a number of cancellations and we had the suites we wanted. Her parents were overjoyed that we would be so near them and asked us to join them for Christmas lunch. Knowing Claire, I bet we are going to have the best ever English Christmas lunch.
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We only had a couple of days to go and I wanted Rose to look as good as possible, those unbecoming lines of bitterness gone from her face, so I pushed at the healer, changing my deadline. I suspect the healer could have changed her within hours, but she’d had too many adjustments to make, so I felt that changing her appearance over days would cushion the shock for her. As it was, she walked around as if in a daze. She had danced with us and then had her questions answered by Alki and Marian. She had not felt any sexual stirrings for many years and was confused by her desperate needs that night. Not having satisfied them and not having been grounded (anchored) back to this world by physical contact, for slightly more than a day she kept floating off. The effects of my healer, including a sort of hyper energy that comes from being at prime health, made it feel as if the floating off feeling were being extended, making it even more confusing for her.
I decided I had to do something about it, since we would be going to the void again. We invited Themi and Pavlo to our home and after the coffee and cakes I asked them whether they would like to go dancing. Pavlo was so pathetically grateful it brought tears to Cherine’s eyes - we had not realised how much he wanted it. Dommi stopped me, asking to speak to us without Pavlo being present. We all told her to say what is on her mind, as it is only fair he also be present. She gave me an exasperated look.
“We cannot do this Roberto. Pavlo is still a child and lives with his parents. If he becomes part of a circle, how will he bear having to be apart from his group? It will be torture. You know what else will happen, how do you think his parents will react if they find out?”
My face drained at the implied threat to our group. In agony I tried to explain myself, using Cherine as my focus, since I could not face Pavlo and the deep disappointment I knew he would be feeling.
“After our setbacks at trying to find new people to create more groups, I thought that an answer might be to recruit youngsters and children. They are more open. I had even thought of bringing your friend Maria-Elena in. But Dommi is right, we cannot do this to them, not if the parents are not part of it. How do we handle this now? Pavlo, please do not look so unhappy, we can still take you dancing, it is just that we have to be careful you do not get locked in to a group.”
“I want be in your group with Cherine.” His eyes were brimming.
I sensed how everyone felt the same pain I did. “Oh God! Themi, we did not think of this. We cannot bear to hurt anyone, but we are going to be responsible for many people suffering. It is bound to happen, especially as the girls mature in appearance, that others out of the group will be attracted to them or even fall in love with them. How do we turn them away without hurting them?”
“It will happen more often than you can imagine Robert. You perhaps do not realise it, unless you have taken a good look at them recently, but not only are they all beautiful, with the perfect health you have given them and the deep feeling of happiness they radiate, they glow and stand out from all other girls I have ever met. Yes, many will love them, even strangers who only get to see them once while they are walking to the shops or having a pastry in some patisserie.”
Since Rose had first arrived I had been projecting almost full time, concealing the fact of Cherine’s pregnancy - though I assumed she must have seen the baby soul within her while in the void. Without warning Cherine blocked my projection and stood in front of Pavlo.
“You must not love me Pavlo. Not like that, not like a man, I already belong with Robert. I love you, but I want you as my brother and friend, can you be that? I want you to be an uncle to my child and love it. I want you to find a woman of your own so that I can be the aunt of your children. Will you?”
He put out his hand and felt her bulging tummy as if not believing what he is seeing. He looked at me and his eyes were full of painful questions. Rose had also paled, thin white lines ageing her face again. Her religious and moral sensibilities had been affronted - proving, as I had suspected, that she has not tied in what she saw in the void with how things are in this world. It is strange how the mind tricks everyone, creating blind spots for us so that we are not forced to confront facts which make us uncomfortable.
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This meeting was turning into a first class disaster. I noticed that all my girls drew to me, psychically, as if we were under attack. Themi sighed and spoke, as if only to Alki. “You kept this hidden from his mother? She has danced with them? Then you better explain to her. It will be good for the young man to hear also.”
He was right, it would not do for me to try to explain to my mother, even if she listened to me, she would be prejudiced by the fact that she sees me, deep inside her, as her little boy. I nodded at Alki, giving him the go-ahead.
He followed what is fast becoming a standard procedure. He reminded her of her dancing with us, shocked her by publicly (and in front of me, which is what mostly embarrassed her - for it is not proper) telling her about her sexual re-awakening, her desperate needs, of how she felt as if she could not settle back in her body. He asked whether she has looked at herself in a mirror recently, has she seen how much younger she looks.
He then launched into the explanations, of how this all started with Cherine, of how deep the love was and is between us, of our slowed metabolisms, how long it will take for the little girls to grow up. He told them of how many times I died because I had been separated from Cherine. Both Rose and Pavlo hung on his words while Cherine monitored their reactions.
I saw Rose secretly glancing at Marian, trying to gauge her reactions to what has happened to her daughter and the pregnancy. Marian must have realised this and interrupted Alki.
“Rose, you must be wondering how can I accept this. I fought it for a long time. I was extremely angry, sick at what he was doing with my little girl. So much happened, we can sit and talk about it later, I will tell you all of it. Rose, I saw what happened to my daughter when she could not be with Robert. I had no choice. Either they stay together or else she dies. Anyway, with these gifts of theirs, there was no way I could separate them. I think my own daughter would have killed me if not for Robert stopping her when I tried to take her away.” She glanced at her daughters’ belly. “I am not happy about her being pregnant. She is far, far too young. Do not blame Robert, she managed to trick him - it is entirely her own fault.”
Nothing they were saying was getting through to her. Rose was disgusted by us. Cherine, with the impatience/impulsiveness of youth, not understanding that people need time for adjusting to such major changes, left my side and went to her mother, sitting by her.
“I’m sorry Robert. We are making too many people unhappy, I can’t take it. I’m breaking up our circle. Goodbye my love.” She leant against her mother as she cut me off. The sudden breaking of the link seared through me as if a hot knife had cut me in two. I screamed as the void re-claimed me. Both Dommi and Wendy had been linked into me and though she did not cut them off they screamed as they felt my agony within themselves and then our contact was severed. Dommi was the first to recover, but Wendy was too young, too new to our kind of experiences, and this was the first time she was having to endure this kind of suffering in me. She panicked and attacked Cherine, stopping as soon as she saw Cherine is also dying. She wailed and it turned into a song of all her pain and grief. She curled up and withdrew into her shell.
My protector went mad, trying to save all of them at the same time and so it abandoned me as I was lowest on the priority list. Dommi came rushing out, looking for me. Even in my agony as the void ate at me I sent her after Cherine. She must save her and the baby. I called to my protector telling it to do my body damage in a specific way.
Alki, Marian and Themi were in a panic, not knowing who to help first or what to do. Rose sat there as if not convinced that any of this was real - until the protector attacked me, my body smashed across the room and blood began to flow from my lips and ears. She knelt by my body and began to sob, trying to hold me as my body jerked about in pain.
I had a suspicion that Cherine had staged the whole thing to convince my mother and that she had now lost control, not expecting herself to react so strongly to the cut off - I may be wrong and I have no way of proving my theory, but I suspect she felt it so strongly because her unborn daughter was also affected and thus, affecting her. If I am right, it means the babies are linked to us from before birth!
I fought off the void and went looking for Cherine/Dommi. As they were also concentrating on returning to me, I was able to sense them and flew my way into both of them, melding and trying to encourage my healer to help their healers while I tried to contact Cherine directly. I had to use Dommi at the start and I somehow slipped into her mind. She was there, a small tight ball of fear.
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*Cherine love, you have made your point. Come back now or else I will really die. My body has already stopped breathing and there is no heartbeat. We do not have time to waste, come back now, link me back in. Please Cherry-baby.*
I finally felt her stirring and she opened our link again. We grew stronger immediately and she was able to help Dommi recover. They both stared with anxiety at my link to my body as it melted away. I quickly explained what I had done and told them to return and lay down next to me so that it seems they are bringing me back to life. They realised I was not returning with them, so I explained I have to go help Wendy, I could feel I had to go to her. If I had had an ear, Dommi would have grabbed me by it. She was livid. Together they were formidable, but all I could think of was my poor baby suffering. I sped off.
She had locked herself into a tight shell again and I could sense her body had slowed down. I had never thought she could possibly die if I did, but saw now she was fading away; the evidence more obvious in the physical part of her, heartbeat slowing down, her body switching itself off. I found her link and streaked into her.
This time she did not react with joy and love at my appearance. It was as if she had already switched off her heart and was now closing down, ready to abandon life. Thanks to the previous healing it was not too difficult to bring her body back to her normal state, but I was worried about her apathy. I explained what she will see when she opens her eyes and the reason for Cherine and I doing what we had done. She did not react, still trapped deep in her shocked grief, but indicated she understood.
As I tried to return to my body, it felt as if there is a membrane surrounding it, preventing me from entering. I tried calling my healer/protector, but got no response. I saw my link was almost gone. I now felt fear for the first time. My body must have been damaged too badly or else I had stayed away too long. Dommi appeared and taking the situation in, immediately enveloped me within herself, reassuring me that they will not let me return to the cold void, we will start the Kaleidoscope World and all be together.
Cherine and Wendy appeared and Dommi cried out to them, calling them to help take me to the void and create the Kaleidoscope World so as not to lose me. Cherine ignored her and melted into my fading link, flowing through it back into my body. She returned and we could all feel the amazement in her. It was Rose keeping me out!
The protector had not known what to do as I had given her a high rating also. I thought for a while, but could not see what the best solution was. Rose thought she was protecting me, trying to hold me in, not realising I was outside. As she was not conscious of what she was doing and still not self-aware in this state, they could not go to her and tell her what she is doing. The membrane or shield she had made of herself also did not seem self-aware so we could not communicate with it.
Cherine gathered me, without a word, and took me with her as she returned to my body. Rose had concentrated herself inwards and recognised me as I asked her to release me; she then returned to her own body. I opened my eyes to find her fallen across me. I sent to the girls a warning not to let any of the others know why this happened, they would be very angry and hurt if they realise we have done this on purpose.
As we put Rose back in her seat, my eye caught sight of Pavlo sitting hunched over with his eyes red and face streaked by tears. I went to him and put my arms around him and held him as he sobbed. We had traumatised a roomful of people and I tried to take in all their pain. Once Rose was aware again, I turned to Alki.
“I am exhausted, I need some time to myself. Please take my mother with you, we can talk tomorrow. Pavlo, agori mou (my boy), when we are about to go to the void again, if you want to come with us, you will be welcome.”
As they left I saw Wendy, who had not shown any reaction since returning, go by herself into the guest room and shut the door behind her. I felt her in there, her body now being racked by her sobbing. I did not know what was the right thing to do and turned to Dommi.
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“She needs to have someone in there with her. Someone to hold her. That is a little child crying in there Robert.”
“I know. But who should go? Doesn’t she need a mothers arms around her now?”
“No. She needs you.”
“That would be wrong Dommi. I do not want to reinforce her attachment to me - you go, it will bring her closer to you.”
Exasperated by me, Cherine spoke abruptly, “Oh shit! just go to her will you?”
“Don’t you dare ‘shit’ me!! I am still bloody angry with you. We’ll talk later.”
I shut the door softly behind me and took her in my arms. Her body was still shuddering so I tightened my hold and murmured of how much I love her and so on. As she quietened and buried her face in my shoulder I pulled her away and looked her in the eyes.
“Wendy I never knew you love me so much!” She did not answer, but new tears flowed as she stared at me. “I promise I will do my best to deserve so much love.”
She buried her face again and murmured from there, “Promise you will never leave me?”
“Never my love. Remember, we are very lucky, even if one of us, or all of us die, we still do not get parted, we’ll form the Kaleidoscope World and live there together. You are stuck with me forever and ever - or until you get sick of me.”
This brought on a new surge of tears, leaving me feeling bewildered. It seemed that whatever I said or did all I managed to do was make her cry. I wished Dommi were here instead of me. I had a brainwave.
“Sing just for me my love. Sing me a song of how you love me.”
Okay! I am pretty stupid and a real glut for punishment. She sang and my heart broke and I wept as I held my face buried in her sweet smelling hair. The girls heard through me and Dommi had to hold Cherine as they both sobbed.
I called to them, asking them to come in. “Will both of you give our baby your loving?”
Wordlessly they lay down alongside and embraced her. When over twenty minutes had passed and all they had done was hold her, I sent a question mark to Dommi. She lazily sent back to me a soft happy smile so I left it to them and lying down at the foot of the bed dozed off.
I awoke with a start. Dommi had flicked my nose with her toe. As I looked over at her I saw they had undressed Wendy. Four hands were rubbing her body, caressing her face with sweet tenderness. I opened myself to Wendy so as to feel what she was enjoying. I guess it is a little like being a voyeur, a sort of mental peeping tom, though I can meretriciously (επιτηδευμένος) justify myself with the excuse that all three of them are a part of me, so I am only spying on myself. Their hands were fondling with just the right pressure, at just the right speed, lingering where they should until her whole body was softly glowing in pleasure. She stretched like a little kitten and I felt the growing tension and ache that began from deep within her belly, mostly caused I guess, from the visit to the void.
They avoided somehow building that warmth into a burning passion. It was as if she were meant to hang midway to heaven, floating on feelings of bliss. I cannot say whether this lasted but a few minutes or forever, but I was the first to sense a stirring within her. She had been quiescent, enjoy their loving, but now she began to feel the need to love them. She started by lightly running her fingers over Dommi’s face, a finger parting her lips. Slowly they ran down her until they were over her swollen breasts, feeling their milky fullness. Her mouth rose to take a nipple in and Dommi moaned. She had become so sensitive from giving of her love that the effect was doubly pleasurable.
It was not that long before I sensed the amusement from Cherine and Dommi and felt Wendy place herself on my chest where she could hear my heartbeat, before finally sleeping.
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The girls helped pull me up the bed without waking Wendy and they lay alongside me. They knew I too needed them desperately after the day we had been through, but I asked them to just hold me and ordered the healer to take away my need for a while. Cherine laughed and stopped it.
Later, she said, “That was just to keep you going until she wakes up.” She gave her naughty smile and kissed me before snuggling up and falling asleep with her arm over Wendy.
PART ELEVEN
Chapter Forty Four
Cherine’s voice and tone were soft, not confrontational, as the words may seem when you read them in our diary. “You said you were bloody angry and going to speak to me later. Do you want us to talk now?”
“What is the point. I’m only going to end up digging myself deeper into a hole. Anyway, it worked so I better keep quiet.” I shrugged, the Greek shrug of resignation.
“Please don’t Robert. I prefer it if you shout at me.”
Dommi said, “Cherine, you have a gift of doing things that seem to be wrong at the time and yet they work out for the good of the group. That is why Robert is not angry anymore.”
“Not quite right Dommi, I am still angry, I just don’t think there is much purpose in having an argument about it. This time it was very serious. She hurt a lot of people, including you and Wendy. She risked not only our lives, she risked the lives of our babies. The unexpected happened and she nearly caused my death. Cherine if you had not thought of the way past Rose, what excuse would you have now? Do you think we are so powerful nothing can go wrong? You risked all, for what? Rose does not come first. Only my family here does - and I’m including the babies…I sensed our daughter suffering and nothing is worth making an innocent baby suffer.”
“That is why I did it. You come first for all three of us,” the other two nodded in agreement, “for Rosie also - how do you think we have felt this whole year, sensing your sadness and need for your mother. None of us expected her to turn out to be so religious and closed to us.”
“First of all Cherine, you could have warned Dommi and Wendy, even if you felt you had to catch me by surprise. As for my mother, if you knew anything about life you would have expected it. Poverty and living in Ireland is bound to bring that out in anyone, especially on the Catholic side. The Irish are not generally known for being broadminded either. Still, I said I do not want to discuss this and I have a reason. Though I was angry, I think it is more important you judge yourself. You must have the courage to take the initiative when you see the need for it, but then you must be your own judge, for responsibility goes with the right to take the initiative. That is true of all of us, including Wendy.”
“What am I supposed to do?” I sensed Wendy had not understood, but I wanted to lay some of the foundation for her also.
“Nothing right now love, but you and your wives keep telling me you are old enough to be our wife, so it means you are also old enough to be responsible for whatever you do. I’m not picking on you and Cherine, I’m only doing what I should have done a long time ago. Cherine, if we are attacked by a hundred soldiers, could you protect us?”
“I think so.”
I nodded, pleased by her self-confidence. “You can, so can Wendy. Do you see why we cannot afford to treat either of you like children? You have acquired powers even adults don’t have and if you do not accept responsibility for any way you use such powers, you will end up becoming a menace to everyone.”
Cherine was awed, but then she glanced at Wendy and tried to imagine her being a menace to everyone and giggled. I accepted that what I told them, because it is so radical, I will have to repeat a number of times until it becomes a part of the way they think.
Αλέξανδρος Ζήνον Ευσταθίου
(Alexander Zenon Eustace)28th March, 2019
- posted on Steemit: 28th March, 2019
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