I really don't have the appetite to eat this time and I only had some cereals just to have something to put into my stomach. Eating meals is such a chore and my mother isn't making interesting meals. Today I asked her to fry the pork chops and make the fat crispy and everytime she brings me the meat the fat isn't crispy and the meat really is tough and it is hard to chew.
The problem now is that she has some forbidden foods and drinks to eat and drinks and it affected the way she makes our meals as she takes some ingredients off like lessening the vinegar and such because she has this acid problem about her esophagus. So my mother doesn't cook some meals altogether.
I just want to cry sometimes because of my eating situation because it is not living anymore but surviving. This is the hardest way to live, having no appetite for foods and having someone that do not know how to make some foods interesting for me to eat.