I thought today it would be fitting to share some things that I don't normally discuss directly. It's not that I don't value these things or find them relevant, I just generally don't think about them or feel the need to mention them. To put it simply, I'm becoming increasingly aware of just how busy I actually am and how many projects I have going on at any given time. Part of me doesn't discuss these things as I don't like to be boisterous about the things that I'm doing, but mainly I don't really think of all of these things as work as I actually enjoy them.
It's rather ironic to me that I can be so interested and involved in so many things that I actually have to pick and choose where to focus my attention. I'm a curator, a leader in several communities built around the chain, I do a philosophy show every week, and there are a few passion projects that I'm not discussing publicly until they are complete that are requiring me to spend more time learning and developing the skills needed that make college look like a joke.
I'm not saying any of this to blow my own horn, it's just quite the stark contrast to the lost and broken individual that I arrived here as. The past two years have really taught me a lot and given me many things to be grateful for and I hope you never hear me complaining about things like the USD value of STEEM, because what I've gained here is worth so much more than that. Hopefully the projects that I'm involved in and the time commitment I make to these communities expresses that, even if I feel like I don't say it enough.
I'm saying all of this to give some kind of relevance to what I'm about to say next. It's becoming extremely clear to me just how important it is to step back and remember to breathe some times. If I think about the shear amount of work I have to do and the fact that I'm bringing it all upon myself, it can get very overwhelming. I don't doubt in anyway that it's worth it and I already know that I wouldn't rather be doing anything else. I'm grateful for all of it honestly.
The importance of taking time to rest and breathe is also very much on my mind. Getting to caught up in things leads to the mindset that I have to force things to happen and I can get frustrated at how long it's taking me to learn certain skills or trying to find time to post daily. Some days I literally have to make myself step back for a few hours and just do a game stream to take some time to chill out and recharge for a bit. It's all about balance after all.
I'm going to be leaving for a meetup with some of my friends that I've made here tomorrow evening and I'll probably be fairly scarce for the next week. My goal is to still do a philosophy show from the meetup on Saturday and who knows, maybe I'll get inspired to write a bit of poetry or something while I'm taking this much needed breather. It's kind of funny that I feel the need to actually mention that I'm going to be sporadically posting for the next week, because people would probably actually notice. I suppose all of this is really about reminding myself and others that it's important to just take some time to breathe and let things settle a bit from time to time. Namaste.