I never thought that one day I would sit down and write such an article, telling my personal story, dealing with damn lumps in both of my "glorious" breasts.
2 of them seem to be harmless but there is one growing and looking a bit suspicious I was told.
At first I didn't want to open up about a very privat issue for any woman and tell the whole world. I usually don't talk about my personal problems in details but after my first biopsy 2 days ago, I had time to think about this matter a lot.
I knew that I have the responsibility to open up about my experience and also needed to share those scary and confused feelings I have, going through the process so far.
I think about love, life and all kind of things important as in my previous post.
Bon Jour ☀️🌞 With No Tomorrow!
Most important:
An illusion became reality!
I fell in love with love and life again!
Thanks to the universe to send a sign that love is just around the corner in every rose you find on your path.
Happiness, passion and sadness are the perfect friends, hugging each other.
There are also unpleasant things but that’s a part of the “game” - Mammasitta
LOVE Is the most important and HEALTH! I did not always know but now I do!
My sweet and brave cancer warrior Cindy!
Scares Are Like Tattoos With Better Stories, The Wisdom And Beauty Of Imperfection - Wabi-Sabi (侘寂)
About a few months ago I exposed the heartbreaking fight of my dear friend Ishmine from Indonesia, a true hero for every woman who found herself with those vicious knots.
She made it through. I am so proud of her and she is my inspiration in my own case I am faced with.
It was an immense shock when I heard about my Indonesian friends, Ishimine's story, loosing her breast, diagnosed with breast cancer at such young age. I will not write a lot about her path since then but she is one of the bravest women I know! Strong and resilient, yet so gentle, soft and beautiful! - Mammasitta
It was time for MY general health check up!
Lucky enough to come back to Austria where every citizen has a free health insurance.
Approximately one year ago I started to arrange various doctor visits to check up on pretty much everything and was told that all is fine except a few little issues with a gallbladder and a small kidney stone. I was amazed and happy that I was told that I am so healthy, considering my age.
I had one more to go.
6 months ago I went into the lab to have my first Mammography. I was told to come back 3 months later to see if a little knot would grow. Yes it did! Twice as large!
My first reaction was : Damn! This can't be true because I didn't feel anything at all and on top of it, nobody in my family has cancer and my mother super fit at age 93! I know that I have her genes.
So ....I went out and distracted myself, parties, fun and more fun and had even a passionate "affair". I said to myself : GO Girl! Have a good time with living life! Never know when its over.
The Biopsy was not pleasant but not too bad, considering needles in my boobs. I am swollen and a little blue but ready to rocknroll again!
OUTSCH!
A breast biopsy is a test that removes tissue or sometimes fluid from the suspicious area. The removed cells are examined under a microscope and further tested to check for the presence of breast cancer. A biopsy is the only diagnostic procedure that can definitely determine if the suspicious area is cancerous.
The good news is that 80% of women who have a breast biopsy do not have breast cancer.
I had Jimi Hendrix "Little Wing Solo" in my ears, when the very nice doctor was shooting some metal pieces to find the spots in case of a surgery .....if needed.
Long story short......
More intense tests were done until I ended up in the hospital for the last to find out if those lumps are harmless or not!
Now .....I wait until June 13th to write part2 ..........
to be continued......
Deep inside I know that I will be just fine! I have to thank all my close and awesome friends to send me their love and empathy! What would I do without my sisters to give me courage!
Last word! Go and check your breast regularly....ladies!
Yours @mammasitta
PS: My apology if I don't reply right away.....